This boy. <3

babies, babies, babies!

Ok, so I don't know how the subject of more babies even comes up when you're first one is only nearing 5 months, but somehow it does, and often! I've dreamed of one day being a mommy for as long as I can remember, and I always knew that I wanted at least three little jewels. But since having my son I question the thought of another baby so often. While I was pregnant I loved this baby I was having so much and knew my life would be changed, but I never knew THIS level of love even existed. Sometimes it truthfully almost hurts when I think about how much I love this kid. It's not at all that I have more love for him than I do my husband, and especially God, but it's just such a different type of love.. from a place somewhere inside I never knew existed.

My thing with more babies is that I feel so fulfilled with my love for Isaac. He's my world. He's my only child.. and so I really just can't figure out what it would be like to be a mom of two or more. And I'm wondering what's wrong with me because I've only ever heard of moms wanting MORE babies because of the joy the first brings. But I have this constant thought of not ever wanting to take anything away from him, I don't want this amazing little boy of mine to ever be pushed to the side to make way for another. Yes, I have this wicked little thought that creeps into my mind and makes me wonder how my heart can possibly be stretched enough to love even more?

At the same time I would love for Isaac to have a sibling, a brother or sister that he could love on and teach new things to. Someone of his blood who will still be here when Matt and I leave this world behind. (Although I'm still believing we will all just be raptured together, ha)

I grew up as one of five siblings and while it was a little annoying at times, I completely love having a big family. Matt absolutely wants another, and deep inside I know that it will happen. I love the thought of adding to our family, but there's plenty of questions I have for mamas of two or more.

We have a good long while before a second becomes a reality, so Ill just keep loving this boy of mine with everything I have.

Doesn't his cuteness just make you want to scream? Or laugh? Or have more babies?? I can hardly stand it.

4 months old & 4th of July

Someone rolled over today!

Such a small thing but I'm a proud mama. Little dude always rolls in our bed but this is the first time he went for the big roll over while playing on the floor. He really hates tummy time but I've been trying to squeeze in a little each day, he only lasts a couple minutes before he starts fussing to be picked up. I sit on the floor with him to try and get him interested in his toys, but his only interest is staring & grumping at me to get him up. Today I put him on the floor and sat on the couch out of his view. He looked around and then went for the roll. SO PROUD.

My baby boy turned 4 months old a few days ago and his checkup is tomorrow. I'm pretty anxious to see  his weight, he is growing like a weed and most of his 9 month clothing is now too small. I've already been putting him in a few 12 month outfits.

We are still bed-sharing but he fell asleep in his crib while I was doing laundry in his room the other day. He talked and played for a long while before he fell asleep. It was also the first time he's gone to sleep without nursing first! Anyway, I snapped a photo of his cuteness

A couple photos of my 4 month old.

We took Isaac to a local firework show for the 4th of July.

He really did enjoy watching the show, but not the flash on my camera so this was the best picture I could get of my little ham.

Each month I say it's my favorite age with him haha, but I really love seeing my boy grow and learn. It just gets more and more exciting. When you think your heart can't be any more full, it just keeps growing.